Some of the best things about being human – our magic, our strength and our foibles. The last can be a source of frustration and amusement.
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Here’s my latest one…
Just recently, i went to my first optometrist appointment, did an eye test and received a pair of prescription reading glasses.
Now that seems like a pretty pedestrian thing to do, and it is.
Except that my eyes have been overcompensating and my reading has been fuzzy for a few years. The denial and avoidance was not just because i’m the procrastination queen!
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So why? Why has it taken so long?
I could make excuses, time, money, busyness etc, but that would be bollocks, cause we all make time and find the resources for the things that are important.
The truth is, it’s because i’m getting older!
Much as my ego likes to pretend that i’m not, that part of me, that bit that fears aging, focused on my eye sight and pretended everything was fine! Just give it time, it will heal itself!
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I am also one of the few family members without glasses, and I kinda liked that uniqueness!
Don’t our egos tell us funny stories?
Quite a few years ago, my sister mentioned that 44 is often the age that people with otherwise good vision might need assistance with eye sight.
But not me! Forty four came and went, and i was fine, right?
My little ego danced away in denial about getting older for over two years.
From the Wisdom of the Oracle by Collete Baron Reid
So a few months ago, I called myself on it, put on my big girl pants, made the appointment and took myself off for the eye test.
Turns out i have presbyopia, common garden variety, age related, near sight degeneration. It’s harder to focus on short distances, but my long distance vision is fine, better than 20/20.
The Chinese word for this “Lao Hua” or old sight. So it turns out that whilst i had myopia of the mind, I was evolving old sight of the body!
My body is one of my great wise teachers. Mental note, listen more!
Standing in the glasses shop, i spent almost an hour trying on specs for my hard to fit nose. (This post is being written peering through said lenses.) And of course, it was the best thing i’ve done in ages!!
Remembering how much I love reading, the last few months i’ve been ploughing through the stack of books on my bedside table. Most evenings are spent engrossed in some tale or wise tome.
Reading is an early love, it’s been missed and welcomed back with a big heart. Luckily my parents read to us as kids, instilling a life long love. Feeling gratitude for all our writers and thinkers.
The best bit, not only does it help with physical focus, but it also helps with concentration. Wearing the glasses, the book or computer screen is in full focus but the background is fuzzy, which reduces distraction. It’s like a tunnel of focus.
The cure for the mental myopia – to embrace aging, of course! Still working on that one!
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Here’s a question for you.
Is there anything you’ve put off that ultimately, will probably be really good for you?
Love to hear your story.
Wishing you a brilliant day of love and connection with yourself
Some of the fab books recently devoured:
- “Big Magic” by Elizabeth Gilbert
- “Daily Rituals” by Mason Currey
- “The Go Giver” by Bob Burg and John David Mann
- “Poke the Box”, “Tribes” and “We are all weird” by Seth Godin
- “A New Earth” by Eckhart Tolle
- “Zen and the art of making a living” by Laurence Boldt
- “What I know for sure” by Oprah Winfrey
- “Essentialism” by Greg McKeown
And a few others…